Final battle

"Kalau awak tak usaha sehabis baik, awak tak layak nak tawakkal. Sebab tawakkal tu untuk org yg dah usaha" - Ami

Pedas tapi deep. Very deep....!

CNS practical - 29 hb Januari 2013
CNS - 10 hb Februari 2013
Physiology - 11 hb Februari 2013
Microbe and Immunity - 14 hb Februari 2013

Dalam Al-Anfal, Allah mengisahkan pada kita kisah peperangan Badar. Bagaimana kaum muslimin yang berjumlah 313 orang berjaya mengalahkan musyrikin yang berjumlah 1000 orang. Waktu itu kekuatan muslimin tidak seberapa, dengan peralatan perang yang serba kekurangan, dan tentera berkuda cuma seorang. Ya, cuma seorang.

Namun, kemenangan berpihak kepada kaum muslimin.

Allah turunkan bantuan berupa hujan yang mendatangkan rasa mengantuk pada kaum muslimin agar hilang rasa gentar dalam hati mereka. Hujan itu turut mengukuhkan injakan kaki mereka di medan peperangan.

Dalam pandangan mereka, Allah menampakkan kaum musyrikin sedikit di mata mereka. Agar hilang kegelisahan hati mereka.

Bantuan tentera malaikat dari langit yang bersama-sama kaum muslimin. Memukul batang-batang leher musyrikin sehingga mereka tumpas sebelum muslimin menyentuh mereka.

Semuanya dikisahkan dalam surah Al-Anfal.

Dari surah ini, Amru Khalid dalam bukunya Khowatir Quraniyah merumuskan, kemenangan datang dengan dua prasyarat:

1) Tawakal pada Allah, kerana kemenangan itu hanya dari sisi Allah.

"Dan Allah tidak menjadikan (bantuan malaikat) itu melainkan sebagai berita gembira dan supaya hati kamu tenang tenteram dengannya dan kemenangan itu pula hanyalah dari sisi Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Kuasa, lagi Maha Bijaksana." (Al-Anfal 8:10)


2) Persiapan material yang terbaik (semampu yang boleh).

"Persiapkanlah dirimu dengan segala kemampuan dan kekuatan yang ada..." (Al-Anfal 8:60)

TAWAKAL dan USAHA.

Dua elemen yang bergerak seiring.

Jangan hanya bertawakal sepenuh hati, doa siang malam, mengharapkan kejayaan menjadi milik kita, hajat kita dimakbulkan Allah, namun tidak ada sekelumit usaha kita letakkan.

Jangan pula berusaha, berhempas pulas, sampai lelah menyapa diri, namun kita lupa pada pemilik kejayaan, Allah yang Maha berkuasa atas segalanya. Yang mana jika Dia mengatakan jadi maka jadilah ia.

Doakan please?

Setahun dah

Assalamualaikum,

1 year had felt so short and so long at the same time... so short in that I haven't realised that we've finished Gene 1 of Perubatan Frontliners and starting through the second... so long as in I have learned so much about coping with myself and people around me. 

Sepanjang bersama mereka, I learned that I am a hard worker and very passionate. When I care about something, I give my all. I put up extra hours and go extra miles. I am very curious about how I will be as a mother. 

I learned that I am a fighter. I have been wronged in my lifetime. Well who hasn't, one might argue. I have had times when I feel like going into a cave and hide away. Usually that feeling arised after we had post mortem meeting. Yet I endure. 

May Allah bless and help my us, the AJK pelaksana dan peserta. Whom in spite of their challenge, stand strong, willing to fight, cooperate with many things, events coming up and stuff.. 

Most especially to those who exhibit redha, taking their flawless as a course of life they have just to make good use of. Allah, yang ni memang rare species, inspiring! 

Bila di'taqdim' ditukarkan dari Unit Latihan dan Pembangunan ke Setiausaha by Timb Pengarah this morning, I'm not sure what to say or how to respond or how to even pass on. 

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A new leaf

 Personal stuff, maaf sekiranya post ini tidak memberi sebarang manfaat.

We were out of each other’s range, in the sense that I don’t know what’s going on with you and vice versa. Unless if I happened to read you tweet or your Facebook status or your blog update.

So it’s normal that we never knew each other’s plan.

Back then, I wanted to come there because of you. Just to see how is it going for you over there. I mean, the place you're studying, the environment and stuff tho we didn't meet. Funny. That is what I called it. Foolish me.

As the day went on while I was there, I knew that this was coming towards an end. You and me. A closure. Yet, another closure. The one that seems most real.

Maybe we’ve reached the end.

When I reached the airport, I teared up a bit once in a while. Forcing a smile to hide my tears, I told Kiki “don’t worry about me, I’m okay.” when she thought I was sad to leave that country.

In the plane, I cried. I have not cried like that in a long time, but I needed that. To get this out of my system. I was not hurt, nor heartbroken. I was sad. Sayu, that’s the Malay word for it.

It has finally really sunk in, settling at the deep part of my heart; maybe we are not meant for one another.

Looking back, I never thought you would be such a big part of my life. This blog is filled with you. From the moment I had that silly crush till today, three years after that silly crush.
I even use your birthday date to remember my medical stuff. Such a fool.

It was funny at the beginning, too childish, to much immature dramas. But I’ve grown so much throughout the whole process. And my feelings developed too, from that silly crush to feeling something so deep and genuine, I never thought I’m capable of this. I have never felt this sincere in loving.

Taking advantage of my broken heart; Trust Allah’s plans.

Turning over a new leaf, in the process of me-neutralkan feeling :(