Pena telah terangkat, lembaran telahpun kering

dua tiga hari ini bila scroll newsfeed,
ternampak kawan kawan batch 'like' atau komen status status kawan kawan mereka yang lama,
kadang kadang memang tergelak jugak lah, iyalah status zaman SPM/kolej/first year di 'up' kan semula.
aku rasa andai aku scroll balik timeline aku, dan lihat status aku yang lama lama, mungkin aku akan tergelak sendiri jugak,

bezanya diri kita yang lama, dan diri kita yang baru,
dan satu hari nanti, aku di masa hadapan, akan tergelak tengok aku yang sekarang.

kadang kadang bila kita ada masalah, kita rasa berat sangat,
rasa macam tak ada orang yang ada masalah yang berat macam kita.
tapi bila dah membesar, kita tengok belakang, masalah kita itu tak ada apa pun.

sebab tu aku cuba pegang kepada "live the moment",
apa yang kita ada sekarang, manfaatkan sebaiknya,
jangan risau tentang masa depan, jangan menyesal tentang masa lalu.
kerana semuanya telah tertulis,
yang penting bagaimana sekarang kita usaha.
"...pena telah terangkat, lembaran lembaran telahpun kering"

of miracles and hopes...

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah this semester have seen me being placed in Internal Medicine department, specifically Endocrine Department. It was so much fun! I can actually see the real hospital environment in Iskandariah. Alhamdulillah I was placed with one extremely amazing doctor, very nice and English-ing accent, very welcoming and helpful in so many ways. One week learning on history making, one week of learning chest with him. I personally like it when his colleague invited us to join her in department round some other days.

My beloved country, Malaysia. Seeing so much strain on you gives me a heartache really. I think it's been a while since I last earnestly prayed for you. So many test Allah has given you at one time. And so many people involved, those who love their family members or friends though the missing flight, those who are working around the clock trying to figure out what has happened to that plane, those who have to leave home for days now for the search and rescue mission and not to mention how lives are becoming difficult with the worsening air and the drought taking place. Being a Malaysian-albeit not being there at the moment-it is heart-wrenching to read the never-ending news. bad ones pilling up one after the other.

And we're back to praying for those miracles. And knowing that miracles only come from Allah.

And quoting Cinderella "even miracle takes a little time"

...and effort. InsyaAllah. May Allah eases.

Pray4MH370
Pray4Malaysia
Pray4rEgypt
Pray4Muslims
prayers for you and me.

GIT

It has been a while folks. Though I do have something in mind to write about, I just thought of a more laid-back and very short entry since it's already waayyy past my bedtime.

Anyway, I have been sick this week. Didn't go to school for two days because of bad diarrhea. I didn't know what did I eat. Sigh. But alhamdulillah I'm recovering.

There's quite a lot to catch up, really for this sem more specifically, GIT. Gastrointestinal module. Like seriously banyak. I hope I won't be getting sick anytime soon because yes, there's quite a lot to catch up. Plus, my body is kind of weak. Senang sakit and stuff so hmm

It always amazes me of how responsive He is when we pray with all our heart.

You know the feeling of constantly missing something/someone but you can't just put your finger on it? Like heart is thousands miles away?

Maybe it's Him that we miss the most. And maybe it's Him that we long to be close to.

Muffin tin cinnamon buns

It is very cold inside, and I’d woken up ravenous and craving for warm cinnamon rolls. Being quite early on a Friday, the one thing that lured me out of my lukewarm bed (for the heater had gone off by then) was the thought of making cinnamon rolls but smaller version, called, muffin cinnamon buns :)

A wonderful aroma now wafts through my humble, little kitchen – nothing like the scent of something-baking-in-the-oven to start the day with; and even better if that certain something happens to be decadent and cinnamonny!

Have an excellent week!. Tomorrow will be the start of 6th sem, hello GIT!. Pray for me please :)

Current

I miss my blog soooo much. I was somewhere in Europe for weeks and our winter break got extended for two weeks. That left me with nothing to do more than weeks.


Weather
The cold weather is not really cold lately, I guess spring is coming soon. Tomorrow is my last day of holidays and guess I will be spending more time with books starting from this week. May Allah ease my journey in this last sem of pre-clinical before clinical. This is just beginning of this medical journey.

Sleep pattern
In this past week I've been trying to re-arrange my circadian rhythm since school starts this coming Saturday. Since holiday started, my sleeping cycle is a complete haywire. I slept during Subuh, woke up during Zuhur. Pretty bad huh. Sometimes I put myself on panadol dose so that I can easily get to sleep.

Not in the mood for books
I still have a lot of books to read but I don't feel like continue any of them. Borrowed some English books and they are left on the table. Maybe because I've been on bigbang theory marathon this week. At these kind of times, I just want to soak my self in my bed and thick blanket and watch comedy show.

Cooking
Since now most of my times now were spent at home, I can try new recipes for breakfast or dinner, yay! Lately I've been so into sweet things and baking. So far so good, and I wanna try this cinnamon bun recipe tomorrow :)

May I shall continue to write consistently on this blog