22 December

My housemates were first to surprise me as they poured out a bucket of water after I went out from the toilet I just had to laughed histerically! Eventhough it was rather crazy trying to survive the cold water during this season, I had fun.. It was the company that mattered the most. It was really early birthday celebration, like 3 days before, due to their busy schedule exams and stuff, they had to suprise me earlier hehe 

And it was Iman, who invited me over to have dinner with her together with Nona and Tiera. Stuffing me with Mori Sushi, and then Coffee Bean and Brew and Chew later. No kidding, but kenyang gila. They had always been my favourite lepaks girls since Prof era. Haha.

Then, dinner treat from my girls, Cam, Hana, Jiji, Su and Syasya! They brought me to Rushdy's CR. Not bad, but service was kinda slow compared to Syari' Fuad's branch.

The next day, another suprise from my PROF's members. They bought me bunch of cupcakes from my favourite bakery, apa tah nama tapi mmg mahal punya bakery. Sedap gilaaaa. And they are all beautiful! Sayang gila nak makan

All thanks to my loved ones! for the cakes, present, chocolates, flowers, letters (: Alhamdulillah, it was all love, mercy and blessings from Allah, indeed.

for it shall be a wonderful journey. Amin.

Ma'murah

Now that we're into the month of December, the temperatures have been dropping to just above freezing and its getting a tad bit difficult to get out from under the covers everyday. Especially when it comes to Friday, because it is the only day you got your one day off per week. To stay up after Subuh is quite difficult for me, at least. 

So, last Friday, me and as usual forever lovely the only one roommate, Hana went to Ma'murah for Friday cycling and walk.

Sorry for my overly excited face

There are many more I wanna show you but I chosed the best out of it. I've been falling more and more in adoration with this small little place (darn it, I knew this would happen!) And why not when you come across views like this on such a regular basis.

We were cycling around Ma'murah that day, I'm tryna get any sorta exercise nowadays even it means bundling up in my woolly scarf and braving the piercing winter cold for a 30minute ride-out with Portia, and I just had to stop to take this all in. The colors that made up the sky this particular morning was ridiculously beautiful man, it couldn't have been more humbling.

It's been a while

Assalamualaikum,
Peace be upon you.

Indeed, it's been a while, hasn't it?.. and I've been switching between more than just clothes. Principles, Characters, Books, Acquaintances? Internal or external elements.. I've juggled them all, bit by bit, here and there.. and still not quitting. Not limited to the ones in the kitchen, quite a few experiments had been done, some with a clear-cut and well-justified results.. and some were just, incomprehensible. I've no idea adding two and two together could be exasperating sometimes. Ah well, since when Mathematics (let alone Logic), solves everything?

After a few of my journeys within, and to the outside of my 'parameters', I decided to start writing again from time to time. I wondered what exactly had made me slow down a bit. Up until now, one after another treasure boxes of my own thoughts and musings had already went unnoticed, unacknowledged.. left unaddressed in the midst of a boiling cauldron of Everything.

So yes, here I am, like trillions of others - thrown, or placed, in a phase of the Living Dunya. Struggling to sort things out and finding my ground, I had a few interesting encounters with new people and places. Above or below consciousness, with or without deliberations.. well, that's still a mystery waiting to be sorted out.



I sincerely hope, and wish, I know what I'm doing all the time... and why.

Pack your bag, hop on a flight and live a new life.

Oh wait.

Before you do that, you might want to consider the place you're going to stay and how to get around.

And if you could still use your current phone contract or if the people there speak the same language.

And if they still use the same British Pound.

If there is any of your favourite shops and where to get key ingredients of your favourite food.

I guess this is the other side of the 'pack your bag, hop on a flight and live a new life' motto. The adventure of not knowing it all, meddling with the trouble later.

I will get through this.  I know I will.

Oh, can't wait! 

Tao Sushi

Yesterday afternoon after coming back from class, Hana asked if if I wanna go for Tao Sushi, new sushi shop in town. We didn't know the exact location of this place, but according to the map, it was quite far, 8 tram station away from us. Hana said, why don't we give it a try? Being adventurous us, I brought along my iPad for easier tracking.

So, from Camp Ceasar to Rushdy, we followed the maps. There were lots of shops. This part of Rushdy is quite different from the place we usually go. Syari' Fuad, Szezos Street, etc. How do I say this, the building structure, the shops, the environment, I can say it feels meriah and urban compared to our place.

There were lots of cafes and odd brands that I have never heard of. I think it would be nice to have a stroll down and have a browse around if you have that spare time.

So, alhamdulillah after few minutes walk, so we found this new Tao Sushi Restaurant. It is located above Brew and Chew at Kafr Abdour Street. Quite narrow and eerie street I must say. But it can easily be found. Alhamdulillah hilang lah kelaparan kami (:

The sushi was not bad. Slight cheaper compared to Mori Sushi. But I preferred Mori more! XD

Belanja selfie sikit tengah tunggu tram

Struggle

 The strongest steel is forged from the hottest of fires.

That is what I tell myself when the going gets tough.

Life is always full of challenges. There is always something that will make you grit your teeth in frustration, be in a trying work colleague, dealing with bureaucratic matters, trying to juggle student life – but I always thought that God would never give you a challenge that you didn’t have the mental fortitude to overcome.

The most highly regarded apostles of religion were the ones who were tested the hardest. The most successful individuals had the most grueling of trials. Sometimes it seems like those who are the loveliest people are put through such difficulty in life.

Nobody every promised life was going to be fair, but every bump on the road is slowly building you up to be someone you have yet to become.

When the mountain looms up against you, just take a step back and take a break. Take it one step at a time, and identify the moments that you are struggling with and accept that it is a journey that we all have to take at our own time.

Just reach out and understand that it is okay to struggle, that we are not expected to attain perfection, that there are times where we cannot do it alone.

It is a road we will all take.

Just find that strength inside.

Not a birthday post

maturity creeps up on you slowly, like the dawn creeps up on the night.
the past one year has probably taught me a lot more than the 5 years before- combined.

my emotions have became less affected by people around me. this isn't to say that i've turned cold or more guarded. far from that. i think i've realised that i need to have some reserve for myself, like an emotional piggy bank, so no matter how bad a day goes, at the end of the day, there is a limit to how it can affect me.

i noticed that i've became more forgiving, more accepting. perhaps it is age, i don't know. perhaps going through a difficult time made me realise that everyone does at some point. will that person be at his best behaviour? no. will my anger help someone's bad day? no.  i've learned to give someone in need my time,

i am not so great with people. how do i put this in words.... i am a friendly introvert. in that i may not make the first move in initiating a friendship, but i welcome them. in fact, u make my day if you do. i love how my travels have given me the chance to meet, and hopefully have meaningful friendships with people from greece, bosnia, czech and the most recent one, budapest. it makes me happy that people are the same inside. it is amazing to think that at some point, we shared laughs together over a joke at a place foreign to both of us.

life, age, time. whatever you call it... thank you.
you are a great teacher. alhamdulillah for this chance.

Yin to my yang

I sometimes mentally assign people to elements: fire, wind, water. Me? I always thought of myself as fire. Ppl usually mistake me as airy, light, but I am passionate, rather strong-headed in something I love and believe in. 

Ive always thought that someday my partner in life will be water. Somebody simple and see - through in his intentions. Willful but gentle and steady. A bystander yet a supporter in his patience. There, always. The yin to my yang. 

Selamat jalan

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum.

Akan memulakan perjalanan ke Dubai dalam masa 2 jam lagi. Akan merindui mak bapak ana azeema dan aiman. Doakan kakak terus kuat dalam menempuh apa jua halangan cabaran dugaan yang mendatang. Perjalanan sebagai seorang pelajar memerlukan kekuatan, kesungguhan yang luar biasa. Aku sedar banyaknya aku tersasar dalam matlamat aku menuntut ilmu. Bersihkan jiwa yang kotor ini yaRab. Mudahkan untuk aku memahami, mengingati ilmu Mu yaAllah. 

Mengharapkan perjalanan sebagai seorang pelajar klinikal dipermudahkan. Aku pernah rasa jatuh bangun. Betapa peritnya jika kau berada di bawah. Bila dicuba untuk bangun, rasa tiada kekuatan untuk menempuhinya. Hanya dengan melihat wajah yang disayangi manpu untuk membuatkan air mata jatuh deras. 

 

I miss you already mak, pak. YaAllah lindungilah kekasih hatiku ini daripada apa2 bahaya. Kau curahkan rahmat dan kasih sayang ke atas mereka yaAllah. 

Dan adik adik kakak yang kakak sentiasa sayang, jaga diri belajar sungguh2 ok? I am reminding myself too here. I couldn't write anymore. Hati rasa berat nak meninggalkan tanah air. 

Selamat jalan Malaysia. Aku merinduimu 😔

Kahwin

Feed dalam sosial network melambak2 dengan gambar bertunang/kahwin. Kita tengok, terdetik di hati, "Agak-agak bilalah turn kita pulak, and dengan siapa kita bakal end up?" Mula terasa risau.

Haha! Korang rasa risau kan? Ke tak? Kalau aku, aku mengaku ketenangan aku sedikit terusiklahkan. Tipulah kalau kita tak wonder dengan siapa kita bakal end up with. Umoq dah nak masuk 24 tahun. Ada yang 20 tahun dah beranak 1. Hmm hal ini bukan among yang single saja, even yang dah couple tuh pun kena risau sebab; suka and cinta sangat kita dekat someone pun tak semestinya ada jodoh. Kan, kan kan?

Saya menyeru kepada diri saya and sesiapa yang terbaca ini, jodoh adalah termasuk dalam rezeki yang telah ditetapkan Allah. But still kene bubuh effort juga. Kalau keadaan kita yang belajar ini tak mengizinkan kita bubuh effort nak kahwin, apa kata diri saya and kita semua bubuh effort ke arah pembaikan diri bukan sahaja untuk ke fasa perkahwinan tapi untuk sepanjang kehidupan kita dunia dan akhirat.

Kadang kita rasa kita dah jumpa orang yang paling kita suka, yang kita rasa diri orang itu calon terbaik untuk jadi isteri/suami kita, tiada apa boleh pisahkan. Tapi kena ingat, kita merancang, nak orang tu, tapi Allah bagi orang lain.

Puaslah bercinta, bersulam kasih bertahun tahun tapi Allah kata putus di tengah jalan. Ini adalah kata2 favourite saya :-

What is destined will reach you, even if it be underneath two mountains. What is not destined, will not reach you, even if it be between your two lips!

— An Arabic Proverb

Allah pasti permudahkan semuanya sekiranya kita berusaha menjadi hamba yang baik.

Perkahwinan bukanlah suatu perkara yang boleh disandarkan kepada cinta semata-mata kerana perkara yang kita excited sangat pada mulanya akan menjadi routine sepanjang hayat kita sama macam kita fly, dulu excited sekarang rasa biasanya.

Personally, bagi saya, perkahwinan adalah medan kehidupan di mana seorang lelaki and seorang perempuan yang hidup bersama untuk melengkapi kekurangan diri masing-masing supaya berusaha bersama-sama, berjuang untuk menjadikan diri-sendiri lebih baik dari hari semalam demi mencari keredhaan Allah.insyaAllah. Masing masing perlulah give and take demi untuk mencapai kebahagian dan kesenangan dalam rumah tangga. Kerjasama, tolak ansur, jangan berkira sangat itu kerja siapa itu. InsyaAllah sepakat membawa berkat (:

Cewah cakap macam pengalaman. Apa2 apapun semoga bila datangnya jodoh itu nanti, aku dalam keadaan yang bersedia untuk menerima seseorang yang baru dalam hidup. K geli. Bye

Random je

Bismillah.

Susah betul hendak membuat karangan bila dah lama tidak menulis sebegini. Memasak laksa sarawak dua periuk besar lagi senang. Sudahlah senang, sedap dimakan. Sudahlah saya sedang lapar. Ada blog pon bukan boleh dimakan. Jadi mengapa ye saya ada blog sekarang ini?

Sebenarnya saya ingin menulis pelbagai cerita yang terjadi sepanjang ketiadaan saya. Walau sebenarnya saya sentiasa ada bersepah-sepah di serata social media. Sebenarnya saya … mengapa saya asyik cakap ‘sebenarnya sebenarnya sebenarnya’ dari tadi? Sebenarnya saya memang dah tak reti membuat karangan! Mengapakah anda kena membaca tulisan ini? Maafkan saya telah kembali secara anti-klimaks.

Ok sebenarnya (tengok tu...) saja saya nak mengupload print screen conversation twitter di bawah.

Tak ada tujuan apa-apa cumanya dalam dunia yang serba moden begini, tanpa mengira privasi seseorang perbualan kita dengan seseorang boleh diganggu oleh beberapa pihak macam kawan yang agak jahanam haha. Saya tidak menyalahkan sesiapa tapi saya percaya ini memang sekadar gurauan di laman sosial.

Terima kasih kerana telah memberi senyuman di bibir ini ketika hari ku rasakan aku tak mampu lagi untuk hidup.

Terima kasih stranger.



.notakaki: Aku dapat rasakan langkah untuk aku klik button follow tu adalah langkah yang tepat. Kerana aku dapat rasakan setiap kali aku melihat post baru dari kau, aku dah tak rasa apa2.  Aku harap kita masing-masing dapat bersikap professional.

I need space

I don't know if activating my Facebook account back is a good thing. Don't you ever feel suffocated when you log in to your account? I started to deactivate it since last Ramadhan till today. Adalah bukak in between just to check any important noti mcm batch announcement and stuff but other than that, to scroll to stalk to read status, no.

Some space really can ease your mind.

Susceptible

Love.

Allowing yourself to fall in love, to be in love.. is actually not very different from allowing yourself to get hurt, get stabbed, punched or kicked. Sort of like volunteering yourself into a boxing match with no helmets, knee/mouth guards, and obviously skills. Live or die. Both of which, results in visible bruises and/or invisible haemorrhage, depending on your luck.

As for me, I am in.. but with all my protective gears on. Maybe I will throw a punch or two, some kicks here or there, because who says it is a one way fight?

But tell me again, why do we always hurt the one we love most?

Florist

The truth is that I am struggling, have been struggling, to write something, anything, meaningful. Meaningfulness evades me; it escapes my reach, my grasp and flutters away the very moment my fingertips brush against it. Perhaps I am thinking too much, too deeply and perhaps I should just write something, anything.

I just love flowers. Maybe I shall become a florist.

Selamat Hari Raya!

Assalamualaikum and hello! 

I hope it is not too late to wish you all Selamat Hari Raya, from deep bottom of my heart, I, sincerely apologise for any of my wrongdoings intentional/unintentional Kadang kadang tu mungkin ada terkasar bahasa, tersilap bicara. Ye la kadang2, kita tak sedar, tengah seronok sangat, tak fikir panjang dah lukakan hati orang. Minta maaf ye ikhlas dari Atiqa. 

To all readers yang mengenali diri, thank you so much for keeping up with me till now. Walaupun kekerapan berblog taklah sehebat dulu kala, terima kasih kerana still bukak jugak link yang tak kemana ni.

Special raya wishes to my long lost crush, haha, tak tau la awak still baca tak lagi blog saya ni. Tapi olehan kerana pertemuan kita pun d blog, saya nak jugak wish kat sini, Selamat Hari Raya!! Minta maaf if that things I've said might hurt you somewhere, moga Allah protect you always. We might become stranger (again) now, but deep inside my heart, I hope our path will cross again one day.

Ok sebab aku memang tak boleh nak move on lagi, ? Walaupun aku dah putus segala connection? Boo Atiqa

Nah, selfie gopro skett tahun ni

Night Reflections

Unaware, we forget the simple things, the somehow ‘invisible’ things. Left unappreciated are the ones that matters the most.. the ones we can’t function without. Here’s my list of the things that I should be more thankful for:

1. I am grateful for my spare time. The fact that I still have time to myself. And the fact that, I can spend those time in the privacy of my own company. Yes, privacy is a privilege and I thank Allah for that. Dancing and singing alone in the room, lying on the floor staring at the blank  ceiling..just the joy of doing nothing, dolce far niente. 

2. I am grateful that I can sleep soundly at night. I can sleep at night with the hopes that tomorrow will be a better day. I can sleep with the feeling of security and safety and silence. 

3. I am grateful that all of the people that I met and have as close friends, are beautifully wonderful and caring people. People that genuinely cares about me.. for me. Friends who are being nice without ‘expecting more’. Friends that are nice to me for the humble, simple me. Not because of the money I have, not because of my family or my status or something else (which truth be told, I don’t even have and what I even have, is not really truly mine). These people, I will keep very close and dear to my heart, no matter how far they are, how long I haven’t heard from them, because for me, I care for them for who they are.. and not for what I expect them to be.

4. And most of all I am grateful for the state of the country that I’m living in. Where I still have a choice and a voice, where I can still hear the sounds of the birds, the smell of fresh morning air, and the laughter of children playing in the evening. A place where I can still have a table full of food to choose from, where calling your family at home is just one top-up card away, a place where I can still Instagram a photo of the perfectly blue sky with clear clouds. The little things. Appreciate, appreciate. Alhamdulillah.

Home

I'm finally home! Alhamdulillah, it feels so good to be back. After nine months of being abroad, I'm sleeping in my own bed and having dinner with my family at home again. My journey home wasn't really the best one. I flew alone on Emirates from Alexandria to Dubai, and then from Dubai to KLIA. The flight from HGB-DXB went by pretty quickly. But also pretty bad. I had quite massive headache along the flight. I cannot sleep either. Sakit sangat sampai menangis, betul tak tipu. I slept for only 1 hour plus. My eyes were bloodshot and I was totally knackered but I always have trouble sleeping upright in flights. But before we knew it, 3 hours passed just like that. 

DXB-KUL was a bit more fun for me. It was quite comforting and good when you see other Malaysians also in the same flight as yours!! Pretty feeling homey la gitu :D I seat next to a friendly Indian guy who studying in Russia. He was 5th year medical student. Pretty cool and comfortable to talk to. At first we were talking in English and then suddenly he asked "Are you Malaysian?" "Ohh yes, I am!" haa lepas tu melayu terus. Dia memang kelakar. I had fun talking with that guy. 

But anyway, the 7 (very long) hours came and went and the plane started its descent into KLIA at 9.30pm (Saturday night). I saw the most gorgeous view before we landed, and subhanallah (either that or it completely disappeared). Kuala Lumpur is so beautiful and I think many of us don't stop and appreciate it enough. 

Baggage claim suprisingly got a small problem. Because I thought I don't have to take out my luggage when I arrived in KL! Apparently, my luggage stops at KL and the problem is I've booked Sama Sama Ekspress Hotel inside the satellite terminal. So macam kalau keluar dari satellite terminal mana boleh masuk balik sebab I don't have my next boarding pass! And nak check in pun ridicolous because my next flight is tomorrow morning! hah mana ada counter check in untuk esok pagi bukak malam2 macam tu kan! Sigh

Fortunately that MAS officer was so kind "takpe, awak check in dulu dekat hotel. I will print your boarding pass. Bag kita try simpan" And he brought me to meet Emirates officer there and settle down my problem. Officer cakap dia orang boleh tolong ambikkan my lugagge and I have to check out early tomorrow to drop in my luggage for the next flight. Alhamdulillah sangat for that kind hospitality.

And that night, I stay at SamaSama Ekspress. Requested a room with view. Subhanallah atas nikmat yang Allah bagi ni. Kalau lepas one long haul flight and getting such rest memang alhamdulillah terbaik. Katil ada semua, boleh mandi refresh yourself.

Ni la view of runway and control tower from my room. That was actually the plan that I just ride! At Gate C3. Isn't this awesome??! I am pretty much aviation geek and LOVES everything about airplanes and airport (:

There are so many things that I want and need to do this summer, so much cravings to be satisfied, so many people to meet and catch up with! I sure hope I'll have the chance to do everything, or at least most of the things, insyaAllah. However for now, I've got to adjust my sleeping pattern and get used to the heat first.

It's good to be back, Malaysia.

Petang hari

Assalamualaikum and hye
Harap semua yang membaca ni berasa dalam keadaan sihat walafiat and in their best iman.
Sekarang dah petang hari Isnin. Paper last untuk semester ni hari Khamis. Habis paper ni terus berangkat pulang sebab eka dah homesick sangat nak balik jumpa parents and siblings. Rasa perasaan sangat bercampur baur. Kalau ikut nafsu dan perasaan ni dah campak dah semua buku. Nak packing nak balik. Tapi akal masih waras lagi wahai eka oi. Focus jangan lari.

Another summer will come. Tadi bila tengok gambar kawan post beli Honda, kawan dah tunang. At that moment of time, I just realized that we are growing! Soooo fast. Like it feels like yesterday, I sit sebelah Roy, discuss pasal add math. It feels like yesterday jugak I went to school to receive my PMR results. It feels like yesterday jugak i went for my school driving lessons.

You know, things happen so fast that suddenly dia ni dah macam ni. Dia ni dah kahwin, tunang, dapat keta, grad, ada anak! Dan tak lupa ada kawan sekolah yang dah pergi menghadap Allah :( Sebab tu I think we have to appreciate every moment in our life. Every single things, small small things tu sebenarnya sangat bernilai. Tapi eka sendiri as human, kadang kadang lupa benda tu. Contoh in a situation like, our friend tengah cakap dengan kita. Tapi masa tu kita tengah sibuk benda lain. Dalam hati "ahh kau ni tak nampak ke aku sibuk?"

This thing actually happen to me very often. People actually came to me often to tell their stories, sharing stuff. Sometimes cukuplah, rimas. Tapi I keep remind myself that every single thing happen in ur life ada reasonnya. Allah sends you this people to give something in you. To develop something in you. Maybe Allah nak bagi eka lessons from their stories, maybe Allah nak eka reflect something on some musibah or whatnot.

People also come and go. They don't stay in your life like forever! Macam dulu kita in good terms, message and stuff then suddenly maybe I ter-cross my border line. So macam everything become awkward. You ada account baru pun eka malu nak follow because of thing that I said to you. Tapi you actually become one of the biggest thing la that happen in my life. And I believe that feelings were not just normal feelings, hormonal or whatnot. It is there. And I don't know what it is. sigh. Sekarang ni eka tak tau how on earth are we gonna cross our path again. Tapi eka serah everything to Allah. Kalau ada jodoh kita jumpa lagi, kalau takde harap Allah jangan lahhh bagi attach sangat hati ni kat benda benda lama. Harap Allah mudahkan jalan yang terbentang di hadapan awak sekarang ni. Dah grad dah, banyak cabaran yang bakal diharungi. But I believe Allah will make it easy for you. You have such a supporting parents and siblings I believe. May Allah ease your journey to become one great person because I know you already on the right track of becoming one since the first day I knew you. May Allah protect you from any harm, always always showered you and your family by His kasih sayang.

Allah emosi sangat ni kenapa. Buku tak habis baca lagi. Sigh. Saja nak distract otak dari any GIT related sikit petang ni. Baru p order almond croissant dari TBS. Boleh la overcome craving. Ok sampai di sini sahaja luahan hati petang ni.

love,

Eka

Finals Mode

akhir kalam tazkirah drpd ustaz,


استفتى قبلك وان افتك الناس وافتوك

-buatlah keputusan dengan hati kamu
kerana ilmu yang ada pada akal kamu terlalu sedikit
-istikharahlah, hadirkan ALLAH dalam hatimu
mohon pertolongan daripadaNYA
kerana Allah meletakkan ilmu kedalam hatimu.
‪
- Bagaimana mungkin kita dpt buat keputusan yg tepat dalam keadaan hati yang mati?


FINALS
12 hb June : End of Module PathoBio
14 hb June : End of Semester PathoBio
16 hb June : End of Module and Sem Healthcare
26 hb June : End of Semester GIT
27 hb June : Flight!!!

Mohon doa dari kalian. Mohon sangat2. I really believe in the magical of sincere dua's!
And mohon doa jugak untuk Atiqa dan sahabat2 dapat naik tahun clinical. Ameen yarabb!

Pengharapan Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum and hye!

Betapa tak sabarnya menunggu Ramadhan itu untuk tiba. Moga kita sama2 sampai di bulan ramadhan tahun ni, insyaAllah

Secara jujurnya, sewaktu saya belum lagi menjadi Muslim yang 'sebenar', kata orang non-practising la. Dia ada dua, practising and non practising Muslim. Ada orang namanya sahaja atas IC Islam, namun tak mengamalkan cara hidup Islam seperi solat, puasa. Perkara tu biasa dalam masyarakat kita. Puasa hanya sebagai adat ritual, tanpa pemahaman yang betul. Saya pun pernah menjadi orang itu Bila kecik kecik tengok orang berpuasa, kita pun ikut berpuasa.

Sedangkan dalam Quran, Allah berkata dengan jelas, sangat sangat jelas dalam surah AlBaqarah, 183

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Kamu diwajibkan berpuasa sebagaimana diwajibkan atas orang-orang yang dahulu daripada kamu, supaya kamu bertaqwa"

"untuk kamu memperoleh taqwa" That's it. untuk kamu memperoleh taqwa.

Taqwa itu lah sesuatu yang kita cari dan menjadi goal dalam hidup seseorang Muslim yang faham.

Selagi mana kita melakukan sesuatu tu tanpa pemahaman, kita tak akan merasa kenikmatan sesuatu perkara (puasa, solat, menutup aurat, etc). Kenikmatan berpuasa with kefahaman itu masyaAllah, mengubah diri kamu. Mengubah dari mana? Dari dalam hati. Dan sesungguhnya Allah menyuruh kita berpuasa, Allah tahu kita ni lalai. Dalam setahun, 30 hari Allah bagi peluang keemasan ni kat kita, kembali mengingat Allah (with extra!)

"Moga-moga kamu bertaqwa" Tak semua orang puasa itu dapat taqwa dan semoga kita menjadi orang yang mendapat taqwa itu. Allah tidak memerlukan puasa kita, kita yang memerlukannya kerana kita perlu kembali kepada Pencipta kita. We NEED Ramadhan soooooo bad!

Kerana sesungguhnya jiwa-jiwa kita ini kotor. Jiwa-jiwa ini penuh dengan benci, dendam. Jiwa kita ni sangat lalai dalam mengingati Allah.

Allah kata ok, I give you the chance. here is the chance. Untuk kamu mengingat kembali ke dalam diri kamu, siapa kamu sebenarnya.

Balik untuk menyuci kembali jiwa-jiwa kita yang kotor ini kembali dekat kepada Allah dan masyaAllah sesungguhnya jika kita berpuasa memang kerana Allah dan nak menyucikan hati ni, kita akan dapat rasa. Seolah2 hati kita ni berkata2 dengan Allah, kita rasa sebak dan bila bukak puasa tu, cukup sederhana je. Sebab kita rasa cukup bahawa Allah itu nak mengajar kita dapat merasai kesusahan/kesengsaraan orang lain.

Sesungguhnya kita tahu umat Islam di dunia ni, hatta di Malaysia sekalipun masih ada golongan yang masih mencari makanan dari dalam tong sampah. Dan mereka ni kalau tengok kita nak bagi makanan, berlari2 nak ambik makanan. Sedangkan kita ni, berbuka puasa makanan penuh satu meja. Tapi hakikatnya, kata nak membersihkan diri dari nafsu makan. So, dia macam it beats the purpose of it (fasting)

Saya mengharapkan puasa pada tahun ni dapat menundukkan nafsu-nafsu yang telah bermaharajalela di dalam jiwa ni. Moga Allah memberi kita kesempatan untuk menghabiskan ramadhan dan bertemu dengan Lailatul Qadar. Moga Allah menghapuskan jugak penyakit2 hati ni dan Allah membantu kita menjadi seorang Muslim yang benar2 mempunyai taqwa kepada Allah. Saya jugak mengharapkan kita menempuh Ramadhan ini dengan tangisan dan air mata, penuh pengharapan dan moga Allah mengampunkan kita semua yang banyaaaaakk sangat dosa ni. Moga Allah membantu masyarakat dunia, rakyat Malaysia, membantu kita mendidik anak2 dan keluarga kita menjadi seorang Muslimin yang baik. Kerana hakikatnya dunia sekrang ni berada dalam penuh pergolakan.

Saya dapat jugak merasakan Allah menyuruh kita kembali bermuhasabah diri untuk melihat bukan untuk diri kita je, tapi untuk kita lebih kesah kepada orang lain.

Moga kita jumpa apa yang kita cari, moga kita peroleh pahala taqwa itu. Moga dapat merubah kita menjadi manusia yang lebih baik lagi sebelum ini dan lebih dekat dengan Allah, insyaAllah

.notakaki: Minta maaf kalau ayat tunggang terbalik

sakit

Assalamualaikum everyone.

Huhh huhhh by Allah's Mercy, Alhamdulillah I am getting better today. Nearly admitted because of dehydration. It all started last week when I had a mild sore throat. Ahhh wait I think I was already feeling lethargic early. Anyhow on the morning, when I had sore throat, I could not care less because biasalah puasa uols kalau tak sakit tekak sikit-sikit kan? That afternoon we had a karnival some sort of bazaar organized by my batch. So I went thinking that going out for a while might be ok since later I want to buy my flight tickets to Jordan.

After I got back from travel agency, tiba-tiba je rasa pening sangat-sangat Ya Allah pastu terus terbaring kesejukan. Lepas tu tak tahan sangat I took panadol. I asked Syaza to checked on me. Ok, dia cakap panas ni eka.

Then I terus ambik kain basah (being so independent since taknak susahkan Syaza and senyap2 I went to bed alone) Malam tu demam panas teruk lagi and my roommate was busy handling this dinner stuff and tak dapat tidur because kepala yang sangat2 pening.

And I keep on ulang alik ke toilet that day I think I had food poisoning at that time. Satu malam lebih 10x pergi yaAllah.

So malam tu tidur la dengan demam demam ni ha. Alhamdulillah by Subuh, demam dah kebah but I had a very very very terrible food poisoning la. Like...

Moga jadi kifarah dosa

Masterhef junior

Weep every friggin episode of masterchef junior! Even at the start of show when they get excited over the stuffs in the pantry or mystery box....by the elimination i'd soak my pj already..

Gosh these kids and their spirit and sincere genuine passion makes me so emotional! And their confidence.....mind blowing. Want kids like them.

Circle of Life

Just like the constellations in the sky,
Out of all the humongous number of stars present there up high,
The brightest of them all form the constellations that we can see, through the night.

Just like the constellations in the sky,
Out of all the unfamiliar faces, persona, images of one might hide,
You were there, and still are there,
So appealing, so enchanting; it is so thick in the air,
That it has come to a point that it is so suffocating,
That it has come to a point that it is so engulfing,
That it has come to a point that it is so smothering, so frustrating.

Just like the constellations in the sky,
You are so far away from my hopes that have been held up high,
Just like the constellations in the sky,
You are so far away from my grip to be tight,
Just like the constellations in the sky,
You are so remote, so distant, that it is making me blight,
Just like the constellations in the sky,
I can only watch you from far,
With thousands of miles apart, making us more than just ajar,
I can only watch you from far,
With the accompany of the butterflies inside, not caring to fall apart,
This is the saying of someone, who keeps thousands of prayers for you in her heart.
This is the saying of someone, that regardless of everything that you have put her through and tear her apart,
She will always be that someone, that will be waiting for you from far, picking you up, when you fall apart.

Marah

Assalamualaikum. Diharapkan dan didoakan agar sesiapa yang membaca post ini dikurniakan sebaik2 iman dan kesihatan serta dilindungi oleh Allah swt senantiasa.

Ni lebih kurang luahan rasa sebelum tidur. Memang aku suka buat post tengah2 malam. Sejak akhir2 ni aku perasan yang aku mudah untuk marah. Sekecil2 perkara dah bengang tak tentu hala.

Dan nak dijadikan ceritanya terus Allah nak tegur tu through status FB seorang senior.

Nak share sini sikit:

Petang tadi call ummi,

"Ummi, rasa macam nak marah je kebelakangan ni"

"Cukup tak baca al-Quran sejuzuk sehari? Ummi kenal kalau I*** tak habiskan sejuzuk sehari mesti jadi macamni"

Sentap.

Terus terus menangis.

Terkenang amalan yg berkurang,

Terkenang betapa banyak hati yang dah aku lukakan.

Satu orang pernah cakap dulu,

"Kalau tak mampu buat semua (amalan), jangan tinggal semua"

Kena kembali semula, cuba cuba tingkat amalan,

Untuk dapat tenang dunia, untuk dapat selamat akhirat.

"Dengan mengingati Allah, hati akan menjadi tenang..."

Cam tu lah al kisahnya. Sentap sangat la. Kita faham je kadang-kadang iman kita ni naik turun. Kalau iman turun, masyaAllah amalan entah ke mana. Kadang-kadang dengan status sebegini, kita dapat muhasabah balik diri kita.

Betullah kata orang kita ni perlu diingatkan walaupun kita dah tau benda tu. Dulu aku mengaku la, macam poyo sikit, hek eleh tak perlu la nak remind, semua orang dah tau.

Tapi sekarang baru aku sedar betapa pentingnya peringatan kepada sesama manusia itu. Tu la sekadar nak post nye. Sekadar nak remind diri sendiri jugak. Kita ni manusia. Lemah.

Dan satu lagi nak share, ayah pernah cakap, kalau kita tau saat2 iman kita lemah tu, jangan tinggalkan solat. Solat benda wajib. Tiang agama. Jangan tinggal. Ingat lagi bila ayah cakap tu macam takde perasaan sangat. Tapi bila ingat balik, solat tu dapat re-charge balik iman kita (InsyaAllah) jika dilakukan dengan khusyuk dan tenang. Nak dapat khusyuk tu memang susah kan, tapi iAllah kita cuba kekawan! (:

With that, selamat malam.

Bayi dan Dia Untukku

Pagi tadi, aku dan Hana balik rumah selepas bermalam di hospital semalaman, dalam pukul 5 pagi. Jalan agak lengang. Kereta dua tiga buah je yang kelihatan. Alhamdulillah teksi pun tak lama tunggu.

Balik dari jaga Zack yg baru je selamat melahirkan baby semalam. Alhamdulillah bayi lelaki, Zaid Harithah namanya. Diambil sempena nama anak angkat Rasulullah (:

Bila tolong jaga Zack post-partum ni kan, teringat dengan mak sendiri. Mulalah kau berfikir, macam ni la rupanya mak kau dulu. Kesakitan masa nak melahirkan anak tu hanya Allah je yang tahu. Besarnya pengorbanan mak ayah kita semenjak kita dari dalam kandungan mereka lagi. Berpantang tak boleh makan suka hati berbulans.

Ok lepas sampai rumah tu, memang terus syahid atas katil. Memang nya aku dengan Hana tak larat nak pergi kelas tadi. Haha ni baru jaga orang beranak kau. Bukan kau sendiri yang beranak. Malam ni dah tak perlu jaga dah. Suami Zack dah datang dari UK buat suprise kononnya haha.

Lepas Maghrib tadi pergi lawat balik Zack, jumpa Ustaz Sofi jugak. hehe dah macam KMS reunion kat sana. Borak-borak dengan Ustaz Sofi dengan Haris (Zack macam dah mengantuk tak layan sangat). Cerita zaman2 KMS dulu rindu sebenarnya.

Bila Haris tanya tadi ustaz tak pergi J ke? Aku terus pandang ustaz haha. Ustaz cakap dia pergi hujung bulan depan untuk graduation ceremony malaysia students kat sana. Aku pun berani tanya, oh dentist ke ustaz. Ustaz pun haah medic dentist. Tengok tarikh yang ustaz cakap tu, aku still ada satu paper left for finals before balik Malaysia. Ustaz tanya ada kawan ke kat sana. Haah adalah beberapa. Sengih sorang2

Apa-apapun, kita mengharapkan Zack cepat recover dan baby pun membesar dengan sihat dan sempurna insyaAllah.

Dan selesai jugak program batch 'Dia Untukku' sebentar tadi.
Alhamdulillah,tersingkap pelbagai persoalan..bak kate panel:-

"sesuatu yang diharapkan jika bukan milik kita tak perlu nak sedih pun,sedia je sebab Allah akan bagi sesuatu yang lebih baik"
Bercakap isu fitrah yang paling besar dan paling berat untuk setiap manusia. Tak sangka rupanya dah "dewasa" bila otak dan akal menerima input-input berkaitan wasilah-wasilah untuk ke arah satu lagi pembinaan individu-individu muslim yang terbaik, insyaAllah..

Kita tahu merancang apa yang terbaik. Moga perancangan kita seiring dengan perancangan Allah yang jauh lebih baik dari apa yang kita impikan.

Moga Allah pilih kita tengah malam nanti untuk bangun qiam beribadah padaNya...bi iznillah.

"Spend the night standing for your lord & He'll place the world under your feet.Your source of strength is your SOLAH " #IlmFest

Kita akan sampai di breaking point di mana kau rasa macam nak menangis tanpa sebab. Nangis lah sepuas-puas hati.  



:Saya ingat awak dekat Mesir 

People come and go

Bismillah and alhamdulillahirabbilalameen.

Assalamualaikum!

I hope who is reading this is in the best of iman and health.  Alhamdulillah, I am done with final presentation for pre-clinical. It was on parasitology. Kawan-kawan satu group pun very supportive and helpful. Alhamdulillah.

Post ni random je tapi ada satu berita hari ni yang menyebabkan aku macam ter-reflect sikit. Bila dengar cerita housemate kau sendiri cakap ada orang nak jumpa mak ayah dia.

Minta maaf kalau korang muak dengar cerita melibatkan perkahwinan ni. Tapi itu bukan point nya. Terasa sangat hari ini sebab bila fikir2 balik, people come and go kan? Betul tak?
In life, ramai orang, pelbagai ragam, banyak karenah manusia sekeliling. Orang-orang ni lah yang akan create some kind of memories la dengan kau. Somehow, bila satu point tu, they will eventually leave you.

Tadi Hana cakap: “eka, people are leaving” The statement was very clear, it get stucked in my mind till i write this post.
.
I was one to get attached. Yes, I am the type of person who couldn’t let go of anything. People, places, events, photographs, moments. Leaving is hard. Losing is harder.

Allah gives us gifts. But then we often become dependent on those gifts, instead of Him. When He gives us money, we depend on the money, not Him. When He gives us people, we depend on people, not Him. When He gives us status or power, we depend on, and become distracted by these things. When Allah gives us health, we become deceived.

Dan bila Allah tarik nikmat yang Allah dah kurniakan tu, kita tersentak seketika. Oo Allah what have I done wrong? You get me tak? Through the loss, our hearts turn entirely to face Him. Subhanallah, nampak tak sayangnya Allah tu kat kita.

InsyaAllah kalau kita inject perasaan kita ni dengan bersandarkan semata2 kerana Allah, insyaAllah perasaan sakit for leaving and forgetting tu akan kurang.

Tak taulah sejauh mana pembaca dapat tangkap apa yang saya cuba sampaikan. Contengan agak berterabur sedikit ekoran pening kepala ni.

Dan insyaAllah kalau orang tinggalkan kita (in case of kawan pindah, kawen, etc), kita sama-samalah doakan yang terbaik untuk dia. Mana tau di saat2 ikhlasnya hati kita berdoa untuk kebaikan dia tu, Allah makbulkan dan Allah turunkan berganda2 kebaikan buat diri kita ameen.

Dan bila esok

Aku tak mau tulis panjang-panjang. Cuma aku mau beri peringatan kepada diri sendiri, esok masa presentation jangan lupa segala apa yang telah dihadam. Baju kurung pula warnanya biar cerah, sedap mata memandang. Segala teks, files, CD dan pendrive jangan mengada tinggal di rumah...

Sekian. Doakan dipermudahkan

Like a wild thing
It caves in
It doesn't own or be owned
fascinating, perplexing, empty.




why does it matter
:(

prof

hello! hai! apa khabar?

i had a great week, consisting of the second PROF's program for Gen III. I had a great team supporting this time around. Couldn't thank enough for having this people around you.

 I love the energy in my life at present. in this one year, I wish to accomplish a few more of my personal goals, including doing a couple more travels, learning more Arabics, polishing more of my public speaking, and getting fitter. Cheers to a better year.

You

"Alhamdulillah, thank you for your kind words. Alhamdulillah. However, deep within me, i feel that i dont deserve these compliments but still alhamdulillah i am glad that i could inspired others even not much, little will do. 


But still Atiqa, we'll be tested on what we said. The only way for us to learn and inspired others is by us going thru tests given by Allah.Kita akan diuji. Ujian supaya kita sentiasa kembali kepada Allah and tak merasakan diri tuh hebat walhal Allah yang Maha Hebat. And jangan sebab akan diberi ujian lagi hebat tu kita xmau jadi lebih baek and ajak orang lain buat baek same same. Kita bukannya baek sangat tapi kita cuba sedaya upaya insyaAllah untuk jadi baek right?"


Isn't  she beautiful? This kakak never fail to inspire and amuse me since back then. What I find more admirable than a knowledgable person is a person who is in constant search for knowledge, with the awareness that intelligence increase together with humility.

And that is so beautiful of you, always humble despite of your achievements. I hope you can achieve more in the future, now that you've done with your medical school, I pray that I can meet and sit down and talk to you one fine day, insyaAllah. Semoga dipermudahkan rezeki oleh Allah untuk kita bertemu suatu hari nanti. I really hope that. Ameen

Love always

Bismillah.

So I just watched Aiman and Amira's wedding video. All I can say is...it is very moving! Aiman's sincere words really get to me. i cant stop laughing when aiman wave and said assalamualaikum to amira and then try to touch her for the very first time

The thought of marriage ni very nice, you know. The talk of marriage pun always be a hot topic la among friends. Jangan deny. Siapa muka monyok bila cerita pasal kawen pun.

Everyone is just an episode in everyone’s life.

Only time will tell whether this is ours. Whoever you are in the future, me myself pun unclear, unknown, undefined.

And before that, I would like to be my own person who is comfortable with my religion. And I would like you to do the same.

I would like us to be the best Muslims we could ever be.

I would like us to prepare for the hereafter before preparing ourself for marriage (whether with each other, or otherwise). As when we’re prepared for the hereafter, insyaAllah we are prepared for marriage.

I would like us to keep each other in our prayers and pray for the best for us.

I would like us to be our own person before completing one another.

I would like us to learn to say no to our nafs before saying no to our kids everytime they misbehave (if this is ours).

And for everytime that I miss you, I remind myself that His love lasts eternally and hence, I should seek His love first and to not act based on my nafs.

Easier said than done.
But I’m trying.

Because I have a long way to go to become a better Muslim. An internal (and sometimes external) struggle on a daily basis.

One day, we will find the answer.

I pray that our heart will accept the answer beautifully and with grace.

Whoever you are, where ever you are right now, what are you up to, stay warm.

Love always,
Me.

Wisdom tooth

My wisdom tooth is coming out soon, for I ended up with mouth cramp and a very pounding headache since two days ago. Mind you, I cannot open my mouth properly and it is very difficult to eat and swallow food these few days. Huu

So here I am, at my room, lying in bed, while reading some practical slides and feeling absolutely sorry for myself. Please help pray for my speedy recovery. Sekarang pun tengah berdenyut dengan kuatnya alahai :( I think i better sleep je for now. Takde anesthetic takde apa 

Tapi sempat lagi buat donut atas request roommate

Ps: semoga dipermudahkan urusan paper2 terakhir orang seberang! How time flies, your graduation is finally here. It’ll end soon insyaAllah :)

Rasa mcm baru semalam habis SPM.

Stronger

Which one of the 5 senses that makes a memory, fade first?

I remember flexions in the voice but not the voice itself.
I remember the way a chin curls up but not the face.
Sometimes the smell of Petra and the house that I went to.
Songs are powerful, they take me right to the same spot where I was.
A memory may also be a collection of emotions, in that you remember exactly how you feel yet not necessarily the details around what made you feel that way.


Someone told me that if you take away things you don't want to remember, you may also take away the good memories.

Agung

Rakyat kerajaan Mesir purba hanya sekitar 2 juta orang..tetapi mereka mampu membina binaan2 binaan agung. Dahulu aku menganggap perkara ini adalah kerana zalimnya firaun yang mengertak rakyat untuk mengangungkannya, namun ternyata aku salah.

Hakikatnya, bilamana rakyat Mesir purba membina kuil-kuil dan piramid-piramid agung mereka, mereka berniat sebulat hati, bahawa keikhlasan mereka dalam membina rumah-rumah tuhan itu, akan diberi ganjaran oleh yang disembah..bahkan akan diukir nama2 mereka dilangit!

Maka aku tertanya kepada diri, perpaduan umat Islam yang berbilion ini, andai kita bersatu ikhlas menyembah dan beramal kepada tuhan yang esa, keagungan apa yang bakal kita gapai?

15.4.2014

Mata boleh lupa sesuatu yang pernah dilihat, akan tetapi hati tidak akan lupa siapa yang pernah ia sayang.

Maya, Arjuna, Aisa

when can we meet again dear arjuna, maja, aiša? one fine day perhaps. kakak iqa dah rindu

Dia orang ni mak ayah mixed. Ayah orang ganu, mak orang czech. Cakap melayu tapi pelat orang czech. Comel sangat. Maya sulung, Arjuna and Aisa twins! Maya and Arjuna both friendly walaupun mula2 sangat malu dengan strangers and pandai cakap melayu sikit2. Kalau Aisa memang tak cakap melayu langsung hehe still cute la.

Kagum dengan parents dia orang yang besarkan anak2 dengan very creative environment. Kalau tengok video2 yg ayah dia upload memang very interesting and creative! Ayah dia kerja film based dekat Czech ni tapi lupa pulak isteri dia kerja apa tapi yang pasti sangat sedap buat ayam masak merah perghh.

Harap dia orang dapat dibesarkan dengan kenal Tuhan, tahu solat 5 waktu, etc. Susah hidup dekat Czech ni, org pun kebanyakannya pro Yahudi. Member Muslims kat sana pun selalu je cerita perihal racist di sana. Allah. Masa kat Europe lah kita dapat mengenal erti syukur dilahirkan sebagai seorang Islam. Kita ni belajar dekat negara2 Islam seolah2 senang dengan keadaan ini dan menjadikan kita malas untuk bergerak mencari ilmu, memajukan diri. Muhasabah untuk diri sendiri

Tapi apa2 pun, untuk kalian bertiga akak doakan agar hidup kalian satu hari nanti akan dihiasi dengan iman, akhlak yang mantap, peribadi yang elok, etc.

Kesian bila datang tanya Maya...

Eka: Maya makan apa tadi?
Maya: Makan nasi..(sambil malu-malu)
Ayah Maya: Makan nasi dengan apa sayang?
Maya: Kicap (perlahan)


Kesian..sedih sangat :(

You

7th April 2014: less than 24 hours before my mid module GIT paper. Lots of pages to read but the questions are 22!

I had a very intense sem. Tak tau nak elaborate macam mana lagi. Tapi sangat intense dan stress.  Please make dua I'll be more focus in my studies. The nearer the exam is, the tempation to do other things other than studying is getting higher too!

Everyone seems to have their crucial or important exams around the corner.

For you, I wish you will be strong in undertaking challenges towards the end of it. I pray that you will be shielded from any hurt or pain, that you will find contentment in the simplest things. For you to remember you parents, siblings, friends or those who have thought you the hard way in whatever comings. For you will thank Allah for bringing those people who have taught you the way you are now. The resilience against temptations, and the ability to still laugh even in the bleakest of time.

Beyond all prayers, wishes and hopes, I just know you will. You will insyaAllah.

Pagi Jumaat

Satu satu berita perkahwinan didengar. Jiji dan Sam pun bakal menyusul. Tak terkejut pun. Memang sweet (:

Pesan guru : Kalau kamu cintakan seseorang, maka doalah supaya kamu dapat bersama nya di syurga.

Kerana cinta itu suatu nikmat, maka kenapa perlu disalah guna??

Andai dengan cinta menjadi asbab ke syurga, maka kenapa perlu jadikan cinta itu jambatan menuju murka sang pencipta??

:(

Pena telah terangkat, lembaran telahpun kering

dua tiga hari ini bila scroll newsfeed,
ternampak kawan kawan batch 'like' atau komen status status kawan kawan mereka yang lama,
kadang kadang memang tergelak jugak lah, iyalah status zaman SPM/kolej/first year di 'up' kan semula.
aku rasa andai aku scroll balik timeline aku, dan lihat status aku yang lama lama, mungkin aku akan tergelak sendiri jugak,

bezanya diri kita yang lama, dan diri kita yang baru,
dan satu hari nanti, aku di masa hadapan, akan tergelak tengok aku yang sekarang.

kadang kadang bila kita ada masalah, kita rasa berat sangat,
rasa macam tak ada orang yang ada masalah yang berat macam kita.
tapi bila dah membesar, kita tengok belakang, masalah kita itu tak ada apa pun.

sebab tu aku cuba pegang kepada "live the moment",
apa yang kita ada sekarang, manfaatkan sebaiknya,
jangan risau tentang masa depan, jangan menyesal tentang masa lalu.
kerana semuanya telah tertulis,
yang penting bagaimana sekarang kita usaha.
"...pena telah terangkat, lembaran lembaran telahpun kering"

of miracles and hopes...

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah this semester have seen me being placed in Internal Medicine department, specifically Endocrine Department. It was so much fun! I can actually see the real hospital environment in Iskandariah. Alhamdulillah I was placed with one extremely amazing doctor, very nice and English-ing accent, very welcoming and helpful in so many ways. One week learning on history making, one week of learning chest with him. I personally like it when his colleague invited us to join her in department round some other days.

My beloved country, Malaysia. Seeing so much strain on you gives me a heartache really. I think it's been a while since I last earnestly prayed for you. So many test Allah has given you at one time. And so many people involved, those who love their family members or friends though the missing flight, those who are working around the clock trying to figure out what has happened to that plane, those who have to leave home for days now for the search and rescue mission and not to mention how lives are becoming difficult with the worsening air and the drought taking place. Being a Malaysian-albeit not being there at the moment-it is heart-wrenching to read the never-ending news. bad ones pilling up one after the other.

And we're back to praying for those miracles. And knowing that miracles only come from Allah.

And quoting Cinderella "even miracle takes a little time"

...and effort. InsyaAllah. May Allah eases.

Pray4MH370
Pray4Malaysia
Pray4rEgypt
Pray4Muslims
prayers for you and me.

GIT

It has been a while folks. Though I do have something in mind to write about, I just thought of a more laid-back and very short entry since it's already waayyy past my bedtime.

Anyway, I have been sick this week. Didn't go to school for two days because of bad diarrhea. I didn't know what did I eat. Sigh. But alhamdulillah I'm recovering.

There's quite a lot to catch up, really for this sem more specifically, GIT. Gastrointestinal module. Like seriously banyak. I hope I won't be getting sick anytime soon because yes, there's quite a lot to catch up. Plus, my body is kind of weak. Senang sakit and stuff so hmm

It always amazes me of how responsive He is when we pray with all our heart.

You know the feeling of constantly missing something/someone but you can't just put your finger on it? Like heart is thousands miles away?

Maybe it's Him that we miss the most. And maybe it's Him that we long to be close to.

Muffin tin cinnamon buns

It is very cold inside, and I’d woken up ravenous and craving for warm cinnamon rolls. Being quite early on a Friday, the one thing that lured me out of my lukewarm bed (for the heater had gone off by then) was the thought of making cinnamon rolls but smaller version, called, muffin cinnamon buns :)

A wonderful aroma now wafts through my humble, little kitchen – nothing like the scent of something-baking-in-the-oven to start the day with; and even better if that certain something happens to be decadent and cinnamonny!

Have an excellent week!. Tomorrow will be the start of 6th sem, hello GIT!. Pray for me please :)

Current

I miss my blog soooo much. I was somewhere in Europe for weeks and our winter break got extended for two weeks. That left me with nothing to do more than weeks.


Weather
The cold weather is not really cold lately, I guess spring is coming soon. Tomorrow is my last day of holidays and guess I will be spending more time with books starting from this week. May Allah ease my journey in this last sem of pre-clinical before clinical. This is just beginning of this medical journey.

Sleep pattern
In this past week I've been trying to re-arrange my circadian rhythm since school starts this coming Saturday. Since holiday started, my sleeping cycle is a complete haywire. I slept during Subuh, woke up during Zuhur. Pretty bad huh. Sometimes I put myself on panadol dose so that I can easily get to sleep.

Not in the mood for books
I still have a lot of books to read but I don't feel like continue any of them. Borrowed some English books and they are left on the table. Maybe because I've been on bigbang theory marathon this week. At these kind of times, I just want to soak my self in my bed and thick blanket and watch comedy show.

Cooking
Since now most of my times now were spent at home, I can try new recipes for breakfast or dinner, yay! Lately I've been so into sweet things and baking. So far so good, and I wanna try this cinnamon bun recipe tomorrow :)

May I shall continue to write consistently on this blog

Have faith!

Nabi Zakaria berkata:” Wahai Tuhanku! Bagaimanakah aku akan beroleh seorang anak, padahal sebenarnya aku telah tua dan isteriku pula mandul?”, Allah berfirman: “Demikianlah keadaannya, Allah melakukan apa yang dikehendakiNya”.

Know that even in the bleakest situation, there would always be something to hold on to

Be strong, eka!
You can do this! 

New beginning

Assalamualaikum.

For those who are still catching up with my blog till today, I would like to say thank you very much and much gratitude for having my blog as one of your reading. Tho I keep on changing the url till today, some of you 'manage' to know it. Haha.

You can always create a new beginning. It is not too late to re-write your life, as long as you are living in the present state of mind. If a bigger part of you still living in the past, now that is difficult.

The future has not been written yet (in mortal sense anyway).

So here it is.

This is my new beginning.

Will be having case presentation on pregnancy and lactation tomorrow. Pray for me!

2013

If there is one thing I’ll ever remember about this year, I’ll name it the year of waiting


in hindsight; mungkin belum cukup baik in order to deserve yang terbaik..