merendek

I think my immune system is going down as Ive gt so many problems regarding my health in these past few days. Just like this afternoon, I got a stomachache and didnt attend my bio consultation class. sigh :/ and you know what? after a call from someone, sakit perut pun hilang? ahaha. macam mana tu?

that's why lah gedik2 dapat join Ayuni and the rest to Plaza Mara. went there and had a humm simple photoshoot :)

Im happy now :)

dont u see?

you are making me happy. :) THANKS

Companionship that comprise of love and attention, is like candle light that gives us the feeling of peace. We can see things better when we're calm, so our problems are less because we see solutions easily. Love is the light that guides us to a better path, that opens up the doors to our greater selves. Love is a good feeling isn't it?

im not in love tho. jangan salah faham ye ;)

learn something

When I woke up, I thought it was a late evening, as the clouds were orange in colour. There is no movement of wind, everything is a stand still and it is strangely quiet. I feel my insides warming up to the day even without my usual cup of milo.

A bright scorching sun is not making her appearance this morning. and there was no sign of the existance of my roommates. They went for the orientation training. Kind of a programme for the fasilitators who are going to handle the upcoming orientation for juniors in July.

By the way, hello people! Hows your day? haish..im so brain freezing right now. I dont know what to do, where to go. sigh :/

The week has taught me to be small. I'm thinking that I should think positive and ignore everything that are useless and waste your time. I think it's a way for us to be thankful of what the Higher Being gave us. That is, to never be afraid of yourselves when we can always be positive in life by putting everything we do for others on the basis of life. Alhamdulillah, I must say. Thank you Allah :)

And for our G4 team project, extracting heavy metal, alhamdulillah everything is going on smoothly. And for now, we are waiting for the permissions to borrow the MARDI lab to extraxt the heavy metal.

bits n pieces of G4's projects :

hospital attachment

went to the hospital again for attachment but yesterday was not the ward unit part which I dont have to go to the ward to do whatsoever task that will be given.

basically, we did some gotong royong yesterday at the rehibition clinic (if Im not mistaken lah).

It is quite far from the Klinik Pakar that we usually went for and we need to climb a bit to reach the place. sigh :/

yesterday's stories..

picture of the day! ^^

love is in the air

Love is boundless and can be shared in all the little good things or in any good way that you do. No matter how busy you maybe, take time to give love - Anonymous

credits : eman

Take care! Hope you are doing well!! :)

hugs and kisses, eka

Random Snippets Part VIII

1. It is hard for me to text/call you people now. If there's some typing error, it needs me to retype the whole sentences once again because the delete button cannot function anymore. Slide pun mcm bangang.Isnt just plain annoying?? So, sorry if i didnt/dont answer your call or didnt/dont reply ur text.

2. Recently, I would feel whirling sensation in the head..my heart beating fast... there is pain pounding my head... I could feel the blood rush causing my ears to feel warm... and feeling the tendency to fall before at the end I'm panting to catch and control my breath in order to slow down the giddiness. Geee... I found out that this description sounds seems like I'm having low blood pressure symptoms. However it is already lessening by now. So... maybe it is not ;P

3. He was having some serious(i guess) headache last night to the extend that he cant concentrate on his revision. Too bad. But I guess he is ok now. Take enough rest ya! :)

4. I think I have slightly added more weight since last weekend might probably due to all the foods I gobbled down during the outing and also from the delivery uyeaahh. Urghhh so I'm feeling a bit tensed already. Not that I ate that much but probably might be because the foods were high of cholesterol? Owh whatever!

5. Cambodia's pics are now can be seen at the foyer! ahaha. Pak Lan is being so nice to me and I caught a few pictures of me there. ahaha. OMG malunya ad gambar I ajar budak2 tu. ahaha. But seriously I miss Cambodia. I miss Kg Juminik where I woke up earlyyyyy in the morning just to take my shower. U know at what time? It's 3.00 am!

6. Last but not least, I miss these people!!!!!!

thanks

i cried in my sleep last night. waking up hoping to get away from all these nightmares when the reality is a hundred times scarier. i need to seek for comfort so i hugged my teddy bear close, held him very tight but it hurts me more knowing that he will never hug me back. he laid there lifeless in my arm, not responding, not even a tickle nor a movement that indicates how he empathize of how i feel.

it’s pathetic that in the very single moment where i badly need a shoulder to lean on, all i have is my teddy bear. i need a hug. just one hug to make all these things better. but sadly it is far within reach so i’m left to settle all these miseries by myself.

But somehow I'm afraid to face tomorrow.

Dibah said " Dont waste ur tears on someone who don't appreciate ur friendship"

Well it is kinda therapy for me actually. Orang kata jangan dikenang2. As what I've said before there are people out there who still loves me, for who i am, for how imperfect i can be. yeahh, i know right.

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* I was quite suprised when I saw MILO on my desk this morning and it was actually from Aisyah. Thanx for being so supportive. and I must be really thankful for having you as my roommate.

* Dibah sayang, thanx for ur coming over this morning. And giving me a few slices of kek batik for my morning breakfast. Seriously I was hungry and those slices were gone in a blink. ehehe.Ok, sumpah sedap! So sory for diturbing u this morning by my pathetic message .

You know how I feel right?

* Oh Ayuni si cumil. Thank you thank you for being so supportive. Regarding ur message last night, it made me cryyyyyy. I cant stop the tears from runnning down my cheeks. Suddenly, I feel like going back home last night because this burden is somehow somthing that I cannot face it by my own.

* Tim!!!!! I know you are the best tim! thanx for being the coolest friend ever! You are somehow reminds me of mak who is soooo far away from me right now. The way you asked me to take the panadols, the way u tap on my head, awwwww..you are so mum. ahaha.

* Sorry for being selfish Fikri. You're trying to work through ur emotions about losing your memory, and here I am saddling you with mine about something crap! But thank you very much for calling me twice today. You made my day. Sorry and yet thank you friend!

And not to forget, my clasmates who are always being there for me. Thanx for sending me off to sick bay this morning. OMG, malunyaaa bila korang tgk my condition. Sorry lah menyusahkan but Im really thankful for having u guys on my side.

hang out

I know Fikri as a very firm person in the heart. He is so contrast compared to me. So he looks strong and cool almost all the times. Since the day I first knew him I can say that until now I never got the chance to see him crying. Until last night, i saw his eyes appeared teary for about 1 minute. That really touched me to the core to see the sturdiest friend crumbled and despaired. Yes, he was so sad last night. It made me even sadder to see him in that miserable state.

By the way, went out with a bunch of crazy people yesterday makes my fever gone away. but I'm still having headache for now.

That no matter how bad i act, how sarcastic i potray my words, how ignorant i respond, there are people out there who still loves me, for who i am, for how imperfect i can be. yeahh, i know right.

..got me thinking, maybe these people are the ones that i should give my love to, my attention to, be with rather than wasting my time to be with this particular person who is always sulking without any concrete reason.

tengok Azie lahap makanan pun dah cukup buat hati senang :)

just a thought :)

p/s: Dear amal, azah, peak, shaf, ect..sorry i cant join you people to hang out in KL today. I'm really really sorry. It was glad to talk to Amal on the phone yesterday and I told everything about my state of condition right now. I really want to find the ease because I now I'm such a vulnerable person but going to KL at this point of time is not a good idea I guess. So I hope I'll get the chance to meet you people maybe next time or in Kuching! See ya and all the best in your finals! Love <3

new life

So you said we should start a new life, but what does time has to do with anything? Isn't the time when we are happy in company of each other give you a new life everytime? I felt that way.

Time does not have anything to do with the ups and downs of our lives. I hate it when in our purest nature, we tend to misuse time for an excuse to hurt others or to feel betrayed. Does it matter if we get married next week or breakup last year?

Nobody can turn back time, once something happened, you cannot go back to the state it were. Even if you try, it won't feel the same. Bitter hearts are in the air.

For me nothing changes, kinda regret it sometimes. But I get to see the part of you I once knew and always remembered, so that's enough reason for me to be happy

Suka hati aku lah~

hey. before I proceed with this entry, firstly sorry for the long silence. Well, life is getting busy and busy. As usual I need to find the right mood whenever I want to blog.

Secondly, let me say thanks to anybody whenever and however u are making my day :)

all right, i don't know why some people bother to ckp byk on what you are doing. Like this morning right, I went to the town nearby to survey on BB/E** with some friends.

Then, a friend of mine asked me "Model hp mana kau aim sekarang?"

Then I pointed at E** because I didn't see any BB kat kedai tu kan.

And she was like "Oi, kau nak beli hp harga 1K lebih?" "kau student lagi, duduk hostel pun ssh nak guna hp mahal2. nanti jatuh dr katil kang"

Ok lah, I respect your opinion. But at the same time I was thinking, why my friends in Kuching never persoalkan apa yg I beli/guna ahhh?

Maybe you are raised in a way that 'kalau beli barang, jangan beli barang mahal' ke apa ke kan. Ok, lah nvm with that.

I immediately tweeted what had happened lah. ahaha. Then, I got some replied from Syasya, Farah and Ryza. Oh well, they are on my side. It's correct right? Aku nak beli barang, suka hati lah sbb itu duit aku. Bukan kacau duit kau pun. ~ Ok, chill!!

Speaking of brands kan, I think I'm cursed to like them. And for that, I realize I'd probably not be at my happiest emotional level if I don't have some items that are made of the best brands in the market. Ni bukan lah maksud nya I sombong/nak berlagak dgn duit ke apa.

Maybe I was raised that way, because both my parents can be picky at things and sometimes all they want is something that they can have for a long time, in other words..they want the best.

Of course, everyone wants the same, but not everyone cares on getting something with a name right? I think I've successfully inherited that strange trait.

But don't scared if you wish to be a part of my family, we're normal most of the time :)

ps: dah2. pergi study

friendship

When someone is angry, one retaliates.

When someone is disappointed, one keeps quiet.

Death of a friend is sooner or later inevitable. But death of a friendship is sad and tragedic. And the latter is hard to deal with.

Miraculous magic of friendship dwells within the heart. Yes, nobody knows how exactly it happened or when did it actually started! But the happiness it brings lifts you up to some kind of wonderful places. To have that feeling ripped from you overnight, total devastation.

It's a game after game. Now that the first game is over, it's now the " See If I Care" game.

Well, you did say time would heal ALL wound. But then, why heal in bitterness when you can heal in peace?

ps: to you my dear friend, please be strong! get well soon. we miss you :(

and to you my other friend, i dont blame you on anything that had happen but personally, please dont be too childish.

today

Hmm I'm feeling well today actually. My stomach is cramping, headache, my voice turns out to sound so weird. not that weird lah but it sounds like im having fever.

Life is plain as usual. So, I do feel tired and boring sometimes okay. Especially when the should be harmless teensy-weensy little thing also could turn into troublesome huge matter, that are what sicken me the most!

It has been a while since my last outing in Seremban. I feel like going out somewhere soon. Pleaseeeee!!~ but my weekend has been occupied for a few things like this coming weekend, I have my Amal Islami Project at SMK Pendeta Zaaba.

Duh~~~ when it comes to these kinds of things I will feel like ouhhh I have already lost my mind for letting myself stuck in this whole sucks life! I am rotting here, please safe me arghhh!!!

it will be normal for me to have a rest after quite sometimes of being pretending to be cool, slumber, strong, relax and patient towards my everyday life. So, once in a month the tank will be loaded and burst. Actually, I do want to look my life with a positive perspective, but after all I am a human from other side of the world so there were sometimes so many uncommon things that tend to irritate me.

Seriously I need a motivation and inspiration here. May be I should read more about positive mind thinking, laughter as best medicine =D, ignorance as best life principle =D, how to have a stoned-heart and being heartless =D =D =D and so on and so forth muahaha!

This is such a pointless entry.