Post presentation party?

Assalamualaikum!

Alhamdulillah akhirnya ini adalah presentation terakhir untuk semester ini. Dan terakhir jugak untuk Tahun Pertama. Waittt what?? Baru first year? Sigh.

Terima kasih lah pada kekawan yang sudi masak. Sedap sedap belaka. Puding roti, cupcakes, sushi, LaksaSarawak, Nasi Kerabu. You named it, oh pengat pisang! Daebak! XD

The same sujud, the same ruku', the same tahiyyat....and the reasons for this are those we all already know of.

:)

Monster

Assalamualaikum,

'To see the world in a grain of sand, and the heaven in a wild flower; hold infinity in the palm of your hand, and eternity in an hour.' - W. Blake

Those little things in life. Heh. Funny how things are moving at the speed of light. Not wanting to miss on anything? Buckle your seat belts; we're going for a ride.

I think IB'd screwed my head with too many philosophies; most of them dysfunctional. Well. The big, fat finals monster's going to run amok soon. You don't wanna miss the fun!!!!

Sigh. When she is supposed to read on her presentation tomorrow but she ended up immersed in Kak Moon and Abg Shazif's graduation album on FB.

SCREW IT.

Her thoughts lingered a few seconds longer on the smile on both of them with genuine interest. The relationship between those two has never ceased to amaze her.

Congratulations Dr Shazif dan Dr Munirah! 

From Cork to Dublin. What a sweet memories for both of you. Mendoakan yang terbaik buat kalian, ameen.


.Notes : Kenal mereka berdua dr Kem Eksplorasi Borneo 2008 yang lalu.

Journey

MY SINCEREST APOLOGY.

I am so sorry.
This distance, is needed.
This ignorance, is crucial.
This silence, is the key.
This pain, is a healer of its own nature.

One day you, you and you; will understand.
Do not wait.

Hargai Aku

Mdm Rosmaria

"May ALLAH bless your future undertakings....antara kita yang mencapai kejayaan adalah mereka yang menahan diri daripada bersangka / syak pada ketentuan ALLAH. Indeed, HE is the best planner, the ALL KNOWING. Adakalanya, sesuatu yangg kita rasakan sukar sebaliknya adalah terlalu mudah andai kita paksa diri untuk lihat dari view point yg berbeza. Sesuatu itu will be our burden ten-fold in magnitude apabila kita resist untuk embrace the actual reality. Reality, however is not a collection of objects, but an accumulation of fundamentals, visionaries, hopes as well as failures. Interestingly, I must say, you have made it THIS FAR due to the extent of how brave you once dared to dream! Continue to create possibilities. Laugh at the face of difficulty ♥ "

Exhausted

Assalamualaikum!

I am exhausted. I have never felt so drained out of courage as much as I am now. No, not energy, it's more like the loss of urge to put effort. Perhaps because this module is boring? Or maybe it's just me? I don't know. The burden had turn exceedingly huge over time. Well, studying smarter is the only way to beat this time constraint, as I'm now left with merely less than one month before final paper.

Ok. This post was just to help me stay awake. So sleep in the early morning. Apparently blogging is more interesting than suppurative inflammation and the diseases.

Hati

Assalamualaikum,

I spend the night completing my Patho assignment, which getting interesting day by day in the lecture hall. I never thought of how Patho works till I learn it at the moment. Tingginya kuasa Allah itu untuk memberi dan menyembuhkan penyakit.

Anyways, this is new. I changed the link, guess I'm entering a new phase on my life. I guess this is the only place I am free to say what's on my mind.

What I learn from Dr Muhaya today; Cita-cita pandangan manusia, makna pandangan Tuhan. People's iman ada ups and down nya kan? But I am so grateful that sampai saat ini, masih ada ruang untuk sesalan di hati. Kalau hati mati, mungkin terus angkuh dan enggan menerima realiti, malah berpaling kalau mendengar apa-apa makanan rohani.

Nauzubillahiminzalik.

Hijab

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Everyday, seeing changes from free hair to hijabers from a circle of high school friends makes my heart melts.

Me myself, I've been through numerous changes, more so that I could ever recall. But those changes remain merely physical in nature, and underneath them is still the same girl who laughs a little too much and talks till the cow comes home. Sigh.

To reflect back, I am honestly couldn't remember why I started to wear hijab, that was in Form 4 (tho it was not fully completely covered back then).

But I believe and personally know I don (to wrap / to cover) the hijab to change.

That struggle in you, inside you. I believe it wasn't easy. There were a lot of struggles especially against our nafs. From never covering up to trying to cover up, properly, perfectly.

It is my hope and du'a that donning the hijab would bring about many more changes for me and my friends. Ameen :)

Take a Break

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Tiada 'gangguan' buku academic sekejap.

Sangat terkesan di hati membaca kisah Imam Syafie....
Saya paling terkesan dengan coretan tentang ibu Imam Syafie, Ummu Habibah al-Udziyyah

Truly she is THE woman behind Imam Syafie's outstanding achievements that has made him one of the MOST contributive person on earth especially with his understanding of Quran & Hadith, and all other kinds of knowledge he learned all his life.

Some pertinent points about ibu Imam Syafie yang saya dapat kutip:

1) Seorang isteri yang solehah, menghormati dan sangat menghargai suami.

2) Ketinggian cita-cita nya terhadap anaknya.

- sentiasa berharap anaknya yang bakal dilahirkan akan menjadi ulama terkenal seperti Imam Abu Hanifah dan Imam Malik, sejak bayi dalam kandungan kerana menyedari hakikat keperluan masyarakat kepada ahli ilmu dan ulamak yang mahir dan telus dan bercita-cita menjadi ibu bapa bagi anak yang membenarkan hadith Rasulullah.

3) Kuat semangat

- kehilangan suami semasa Imam Syafie masih kecil tapi lihatlah anak yang dibesarkannya.

4) Berstrategi bagi memastikan anaknya dapat mencapai cita-cita and develop up to his potential, merancang dari awal

- ibu bapa Imam Syafie saban hari sering sekali membincangkan bagaimana nak jadikan anak-anak mereka hebat dan berguna dan seiring itu pula seing mendoakan
- ibu Imam Syafie sering membaca Quran semasa mengandung dan mengajarnya al Quran sendiri sejak kecil sehingga boleh menghafaz semasa 9 tahun.

5) Ketegasan nya dalam memastikan anaknya cemerlang dan menjadi insan berjasa 

- Sanggup berpisah dengan anaknya yang masih mentah dan kecil menyuruhnya menuntut ilmu
- Sehingga menghalau Imam Syafie pergi menyambung pengajian tatkala dia pulang kerana merindui ibunya

6) Above all, layanan nya pada anaknya sehingga mampu melembutkan hati anaknya. Meski tegas, masih memanjakan dan melunakkan kalbu.

 

Semoga dalam kedaifan saya Allah izinkan saya untuk menjadi ibu seperti ibu Imam Syafie...dengan cita-cita sebesar nya juga.

ameen.