Fair

In the Name of Allah, The Compassionate Source of All of Mercy

"And to Allah belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth, and Allah has power over all things. Verily! In the creation of the heavens and the earth, and in the alternation of night and day, there are indeed signs for men of understanding."

[ Al-Imran: 189-190 ]

have you ever feel so distraught, that you can't even breathe? your knees become so weak that you can't walk. grief grips you SO hard until that little lung of yours can't defy the pressure. even in the deafening noise you can hear it slowly rupture. well, i have.

to tell you the truth, my lung almost exploded. but what saved me was, the believe that everything, every thing happens for a reason and this too shall past.

"Allah will not burden us with something greater than we can bear" [Al-Baqarah: 286]

and just that, just by holding on to that believe, I managed to breathe again. 

difficult times have helped me to understand better than before, how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way. and that so many things that one goes worrying about are of no importance whatsoever. in difficulties, lie opportunities. 

the power that we often overlooked is the power of blessing. i have learnt that we always say the word 'redha', but do we actually feel it by heart? i mean, when we say the word, do we redha in the truest way and meaning? for me, you feel it by heart when you accept whatever that befalls you with open arms and heart, knowing and believing that He knows better, and He knows best. Allah is Ever-Knowing. putting your faith fully upon Allah and praying non-stop for the best. that, to my understanding, is redha. correct me if i am wrong please.

but bear in mind, that 'the best', is not what you want, but rather what you NEED.

Well the main reson for this certain topic because I got a shocking news that my best friend will get married this year! masyaAllah our last meeting was when I sent her off to NZ in 2011 and since then, I haven't seen her face to face except in virtual world, whatsapp, or facebook. And I just realized that time gets shorter before she is someone's wife! This news got me a sudden pang right on the face. 

Not that I am not happy, it is just that, I realized, in life, people will not always stay by your side. People come and go. Give you happiness, lessons, rizq, etc but in the end, you are alone. Pokok pangkalnya Yang di atas itu lah yang selalu ada untuk kau.

bless a thing and it will bless you. curse a thing and it will curse you. if you bless a situation, it has no power to hurt you, and even if it is trouble-some for a time, it will gradually fade out, if you sincerely bless it..

To be honest, sometimes I can be jealous of people yang dah kahwin ni. At this age of mine, bayang bayang mana2 lelaki pun aku tak nampak lagi harharhar.

and whoever said that life is unfair, i beg to differ. life IS fair. because God is Ever-Fair. Mungkin ada rezeki dia untuk kahwin awal tapi takde rezeki dia utk travel. Mungkin rezeki aku untuk travel banyak lagi melebihi rezeki aku untuk jodoh. Haha sapa tahu. and it is the mix of both luxuries and hardships that make life wonderful. for lessons and wisdoms may come in any way He wills. 

for the courage, for the strength, for the patience, and for the unwavering faith that every cloud has a silver lining, i thank God. 

Geram grrr

Tak tahu nak describe apa perasaan sekarang.

Gembira, sedih, geram, kecewa, bercampur baur.

Kak Najah yang datang dari London, aku tak dapat nak jumpa. Atas alasan esok aku nak exam. And aku tak tau pulak dia pergi talk kat CC. Ok aku lambat bukak inbox. Aku dah siap2 message dia awal bila dapat tahu dia nak fly ke Alex. I should have gone there to meet her if I knew this early.

Like, seriously weh sedih gila.

Aku macam dah lama gila nak bersua muka dengan akak ni. Tetiba tak dapat nak jumpa.

Man, serious sedih.

Since aku exam petang esok, aku harap dapat la jumpa dia pagi ke kalau rumah Hana D dekat (since sekarang aku tak tahu lagi rumah dia kat mana)

Tolongla aku Tuhan, Kau tau betapa aku nak sangat jumpa, talk in person with Kak Njah ni.
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The Theory of Everything

Within the famous Stephen Hawking, there is a beautiful love story. Rightly so, The Theory of Everything brings the personal tale of one of the brightest living humans to light. 

STEPHEN HAWKING would not be as famous as he is today if he was not so ill. There is something almost mythical about the image of such a far-reaching mind trapped in an immobile body. It would be absurd, though, to suggest that Hawking’s disability was the most significant thing about him. Never mind black holes or the Big Bang: in this telling of the Hawking story, what really matters is that it’s a moving tale of love conquering all—at least for a while—and the film-makers manage to interweave it with the development of Hawking’s ground-breaking PhD. 

As many people are aware, Stephen Hawking is an atheist. I found myself, at the beginning of the film, wondering how he was able to cope with his disease having never believed in God. The movie shows that he attributes his ability to press through and keep a good attitude to the love of his wife and family, as well as his endeavors to contribute his expertise to the world. He says at the end, “Where there is life, there is hope.”

I found this interesting, one of those lines to mull over a bit. It is not untrue; however, the thought still leaves God out of the picture. Stephen Hawking has spent his life in pursuit of that single simple equation that will explain everything naturally, and while he may have hope because of the incredible contributions the human race is capable of, but the question still remains: what is the source of that hope? Who gives us these abilities? Who holds us through all of our hardships? Who is still there when we lose everything?

Very brilliant movie and it made me shed tears..