One of those nights where I feel the need to create a line or two, be it right or wrong. Weather seems so chilly these past two days, the air-con controller can be chucked aside, comforter seems like the best hiding place.
Growing up, I have always had both my parents at home, all the time. It was not easy but it is sufficient for my growing up needs. From what I remembered, I had great memories because my parents were always around to teach me how to read, to wash my plates, to sweep the floor, to take care of my little sister, to lock the house, to start praying properly , to start fasting, to play badminton, to study hard, to behave, to not follow the wrong set of friends, to not get attached to a boy , to not go against your own parents and to choose the right path for my career.
Those are some of the things that I can remember vividly. Mom has always asked me to be careful when it comes to mingling with boys, extra reminder to not be attached to a guy at a very young age. And also sudden line from mom last week, "Kalau nak cari suami, carilah yag latar belakang nya bagus/baik". Oh adakah disebabkan umur pun dah nak masuk 21, talk talk sebegini is crawling inside the normal conversation?
A normal conversation between my friends and I will always stumble upon whether do we want to settle in Kuching for good when the right time comes? To be honest, I do but with all these visions and missions(WOW!) that I have in life, it seems unfair for me to discount them when I make those decisions. Bapak once said, "Kerja di UK tak nak? Cari experience dulu".
But you know what, at the end of the day, it is my life but I want to be able to be there for my future kids later, just how my parents have always been there for me through thick and thin, throughout my stupidest decisions and the wise ones.
Conclusion of this post is... Haha.. I wish I could just stay here because life is simple here but at the end of the day, it is your life, your say. Pretty much, you have to choose the life that will make you happy or at least, not miserable. If you're happy single, so be it. If you're happy being a workaholic, then be it. If you're happy with 10 kids, so be it. If you're happy riding a motorcycle, then be it.
Honestly, life here feels right.
Growing up, I have always had both my parents at home, all the time. It was not easy but it is sufficient for my growing up needs. From what I remembered, I had great memories because my parents were always around to teach me how to read, to wash my plates, to sweep the floor, to take care of my little sister, to lock the house, to start praying properly , to start fasting, to play badminton, to study hard, to behave, to not follow the wrong set of friends, to not get attached to a boy , to not go against your own parents and to choose the right path for my career.
Those are some of the things that I can remember vividly. Mom has always asked me to be careful when it comes to mingling with boys, extra reminder to not be attached to a guy at a very young age. And also sudden line from mom last week, "Kalau nak cari suami, carilah yag latar belakang nya bagus/baik". Oh adakah disebabkan umur pun dah nak masuk 21, talk talk sebegini is crawling inside the normal conversation?
A normal conversation between my friends and I will always stumble upon whether do we want to settle in Kuching for good when the right time comes? To be honest, I do but with all these visions and missions(WOW!) that I have in life, it seems unfair for me to discount them when I make those decisions. Bapak once said, "Kerja di UK tak nak? Cari experience dulu".
But you know what, at the end of the day, it is my life but I want to be able to be there for my future kids later, just how my parents have always been there for me through thick and thin, throughout my stupidest decisions and the wise ones.
Conclusion of this post is... Haha.. I wish I could just stay here because life is simple here but at the end of the day, it is your life, your say. Pretty much, you have to choose the life that will make you happy or at least, not miserable. If you're happy single, so be it. If you're happy being a workaholic, then be it. If you're happy with 10 kids, so be it. If you're happy riding a motorcycle, then be it.
Honestly, life here feels right.
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