August 27, 2009

foolish heart

It has been raining quite a lot lately. In fact, it rained almost everyday since I came here. Like I've always described myself, my emotional well-being gets affected by the weather. It was a headache just to think of the considerations I have to align with.

Have you ever felt restless, can't sleep, can't eat very well?

And you do not know precisely a word that describes that feeling. A feeling new to your senses, something you've always been looking but scared to face. Wake up in the morning, thought you got the answer to the question you've been looking for- the name of that feeling; but it turns out that it's just another meaningless day. The haunting whispers in your head keeps rotating meaningless syllables every minute and every hour to fit the description of that nerve-wrecking, mysterious feeling.

ok ok. i should stop.

To the one who at this moment is facing a difficult time, if you're feeling scared and lonely; I want you to know that you are not alone and that that feeling will pass by like the wind carrying my thoughts to you. I know that you feel so small right now and how I wish I can wrap my arms around you and make you feel safe, take you away from this uncomforting feeling. Loneliness, the feeling that brings us together- though not in flesh and bones, but in our hearts. This feeling, is the feeling that I will always remember- whenever you're not here within my reach. I become a fragile person without you.

Someday, you will be found and I will never let you go, for your eyes is the window to my happiness.


*please dont make any wild guess regarding my post ye?*



ps: amal, fadh, rosey, farah, fakri, ali, kak dyg n kak saadiah will be in the same flight as me on the 31st august. how great ! penuh airbus oleh kita semua tok kelak eh!

4 comments:

sya said...

melancholy. :)
Hate it, but gotta love it.

Q said...

hohooo..
rombongan bdk srwk kms..
cool!

atiqaaskan said...

qila.4 org je pun dak kms sama flight. hohoh =D

Azira Ishak said...

n aku sorang2 travel dr lcct.
fine.