I'm feeling the way...

I feel...happy. Oh yes, hours and hours of exploding heads, shotgun shells, and blood and gore has really gotten me back into a good mood. I'm HAPPY. Ngahahaa.

Well, I'll be heading off to Kuching tomorrow. Flight-6.05pm. Fakri-10.15pm. Badminton with Azeema on weekends. Less intake of food. (sigh) Oh, and homeworks-lab report too. I tend to use weekends particularly for unleashing the 'carefree' version of me, using the 'no one STUDIES on weekends' quote to make me feel better about myself.

Oh wait, I'm an IB-ian. We are FORCED to do Saturdays.

Oh well, life can't be all daffodils and roses. I mean, after all the other neat stuff I get in exchange, a few sacrifices are in order. So hm, yeah, nothing's been up. Bio's test yesterday was ok I guess. And cant wait to sit for maths test tomorow which I think I havent prepared enuf until this moment.

Meeting friends next week. Can't wait! We seldom see each other now, really, but everytime we do it's just... I dunno, it feels good. I mean, we're not that involved in each others' lives anymore, but we just go somewhere, have lunch, sit down and TALK and laugh and well, we share things completely.

God knows I need someone to talk to right now. So much has happened. So much changes over the past months that was the opening of college.

When I think about it, is life going by too fast?

And if life goes by too fast for me, how are my parents taking it? Sometimes I feel like when I blink, I'll open my eyes and everyone else will be gone. Mom. Dad. My best friends. Never mind that some of them are younger than me. But I don't know, sometimes I realize that if these people weren't around, my life would have no meaning?

I can't save myself. It's something I've convinced myself of a long time ago. I'm not the kind of person who can smile and shrug my problems aside.

So what little meaning my life has, let it be that it was spent for others.

So.

I'm sure now. Before I die, I want to save at least ONE life, in hopes that that one life will be more meaningful than mine.

P.S.- Now that I think about it, it's odd that I get this sudden burst of enlightenment and reason after 5 straight hours of classes...