my so called resolution

Dear diary,

It's only less than 4 days to new year. Time flew so fast, it felt just like whenever you are reaching towards the end of a tunnel... the aftermath ; it's either u feel relieved or suffocated. Metaphorically speaking.

Almost every year I put up a list of resolution in my head and when it comes to the end of that year, somehow I cannot remember any of it anymore. Well, it is not because I managed to fulfill all the things or found the solutions to vote out any of those wishful-thinking wishes. It is probably because by the time I stick the idea or wish into my head, at almost infinitesimal time I will forget it, bluntly.

So this year, apart from the promise to myself of to be a better person ( a little bit better than the year before), I'm wishing of these :

1. Achieve a savings equivalent to 6 months worth of my elaunce given by MARA. Since I am very boros person, like I can't even have RM100 in my purse. Surely I'll belanja it all. Seriously I tell you. If u give me 1K for me to spend it like for a day, puff! . I think saving money is a virtue I should pick while I'm still young.

2. I'll try to reduce those emo entries. Whenever i re-read some of my previos entries, I laughed, I swore and I must admit, I do write some brilliant shit about my so called pathetic life. It was so easy to spill out everything all over because I couldn't care less about what people think about my posts. I just write and write and write. Until I got so overwhelmed with responses from fellow bloggers/readers who reads my blog. I was afraid of hurting others feeling with my entries.

3. Be nice to your annoying friends. I know she's/he's your college mate but seriously, how do you stand *'s annoying non-stop babbler about "kenapelah org Swk ni ni ni?" and how she/he mocking on your pronunciation? Is it wrong for me to tell and scream at her/him "Get a life!" ? but don't you think that is better than analysing the whole drama the way you do it for hours?

4. Stop being a stalker at him... or at least make it less obvious. And OK, I will also stop checking out Facebook profiles of the boy I used to have crushes on.

5. As what I said, I'll be ready to embrace it. And in life, it is pointless to wait for such a long time, and for what? For hope? For two people to keep on waiting for that one miraculous day when they haplessly bump into each other by kismet, and significantly change thier lives the moment thet lay eyes upon the other, is simply preposterous. Waiting is one of the most excruciating types of pain.

6. I will become more and more and more and more careful in driving. Don't ignored the fact that motorcyclists are everywhere and they will hunt you for the rest of your live. Funny thing was, I distinctively remembered that during that moment (accident), everything was kind of happening in slow motion. Right before the motocycle hit my mum's car, I remember thinking to myself, "Hmmmm...this is gonna cost me a lot of money man!"

And the moral of the story is : buy insurance

7. No sleep in class. Usually when it's only 8.30am and I'm already very sleepy! These days I fall asleep so easily and very early in the night too. Is it weird to sleep so early? I think it's rare to see people in this college who sleeps so early at night like me.. hehe. When I say its early, I mean it's around 1.30am. And how I wish I can just take a walk outside until the rising sun warms up the atmosphere in the morning. But that's not always possible with lazy me. Hmm.

8. Stuy hard and smart for the second semester. I think I should re-schedule and re-organize my way of study. Because I screwed up my Sem 1 exam. It was bad. When I say bad, I really mean it. BAD!

9. I'd like to think I'm strong enough not to easily be knocked down by some bitter hearts who knew nothing about me. I believe I'm better than whoever that is worst than me. (haha! okay, that's silly..) I gotta be consistent.. I will keep the dream alive. I need to desaturate the distracting little things off my mind.. I can do it if I just put my mind to it! Yes, this is a public declaration.

10. Get a rich boyfriend. Oh, did I just say something? Ok2. Forget about it.

Final words : I love to crap. Forgive me